Taking the month of May off of Facebook, a long overdue break to reset and recalibrate my daily routines, my sense of available time, and my priorities. There's a lot of humor, music, discussion, and social connection I appreciate about Facebook, but it was feeling like a systemic infection, taking over every aspect of my daily life and creating powerful, compulsive and addictive distractions. It was also shifting my focus away from the real relationships I'm in and the obligations I have for a strong finish to the year. Putting that all together, it was long past time to take a break.
My morning routine included daily music birthday posts, mostly for jazz musicians, but also others, and I think I will keep checking those websites, and perhaps post the birthday acknowledgements here. Probably not daily however.
The other part of my morning routine involved going back through Facebook memories and reposting a lot of memes and so on, and I will be avoiding that. I also was in the habit of reacting or replying to every comment on every post, and that was really starting to feel onerous.
Another "date" with M this past weekend, "date number 6," which spanned about 9:30 Friday to 4:30 Sunday. It feels like we stepped into a parallel world where time went a lot more slowly, but of course it also seemed to just fly by. I experimented with flying from LAX to PHX this time and it was expensive and amazingly weird and complicated. The Uber to and from the airport was a total of $110, for a flight that was pretty much the same price round trip. The flight back on Sunday was delayed 3.5 hours do to an equipment change, and then a missing pilot. The whole weekend was a little odd. There was no microwave or coffee maker in the hotel, in spite of it being about $100 a night. There were also no blankets on the beds. We told the front desk clerk and she actually walked us to the linen closet and loaded us up with two blankets, one of which had weird little suspiciously blood red stains on it. M and I had a little patio to sit out on to eat take out dinners, but it was under a large red K, because the buildings at the hotel were assigned letters.
This particular date, M and I just glommed, perfectly in sync, hardly venturing out for anything except excellent food. One of the surprising things about the energy between M and me is that I am able to sleep deeply and peacefully while in physical contact with her, which has never been true with any other person in the past. I was surprised a few times to wake up with we two entangled blissfully, like something out of an unrealistic movie. I usually have to be, like, a football field away from someone in order to feel I can sleep.
I got Moderna shot 2 yesterday and feel like roadkill today: fever, aches, chills, extremely tired, super foggy brain. I canceled a bunch of meetings and I'm going back to bed soon.
Peter,
Rejoicing with you!
Anne